Today I received the university acceptance letter, and I am very happy. It seems, however, that there is always a small corner in my mind that the light of happiness can't be shed upon—it is with regards to my elementary school teacher. I remember when I was still an elementary school student, history was my best subject. One day my history teacher said she was looking for a subject representative, and naturally I wished to be the one. With a lot of hard work and good luck, I finally became the history representative. After that I changed a lot, and no longer chatted with my classmates during class or played tricks. I didn't even dare to answer questions, so as not to spoil my teacher's impression of me. As a result, my performance was getting worse, and thus my teacher was not as satisfied as before. Sometimes I felt as if she doubted whether I could be the subject representative. I think it was in the final exam that she completely lost confidence in me. Before that exam I was thoroughly prepared, but I didn't perform too well in the exam because I was too nervous. Then I found out that many other students did the exam paper by cheating. In order to make my teacher happy, I also cheated. Unfortunately, my behaviour was discovered by my teacher, but she did nothing except give me a glance, which I could never forget.
So this was the experience. I thought about apologising, but never had the courage. After some years, before the university entry exam, I heard that my teacher was in hospital. Then just last week, she was gone. Now I am a university student, but she could never know that, and I can never have the opportunity to apologise for my behaviour to her.
Could you give me guidance about what I can do to remedy my mistake, or else I shall have this buried in my memory forever as a blame.
Thanks!
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