Wake up from blind life,this is interesting society.People purchase clear life,but when you clam down,you would feel just fake,we are still in the maze,in the dark room,we can not touch everything that can be a backstop.I hope i can keep my mind at this moment,and write my head.But i could not copy it on here,when i open the website,thought is gone,i don't know how to get that again,probably it will be back some day that i don't even know.

  I've never thought i can go with a sharp student life,read everyday,review everyday.The student pressure come back again,but this time ,i should rely to myself,because i'm here alone.But anyway i'm happy to accept everything ,loads of documentos,loads of words,and loads of missing.Miss someone,miss something,miss a lot of things.

    back in barcelona ,nothing change,but my heart is not in here anymore.He is fly away from Europe,he is in somewhere with love.Loads of tear and affection,strong and real.

   Yes i fall in love agian,somebody said i'm foolish,and why get the chain so early,why not enjoy body life before i loss my capital?Because i 'm not the person who with tricky life,i've been looking for my Mr right all along,I didn't know where is my destination ,there it is ?i always ask myself by aloud ring,but still in the dizzy hole,i can't not jump out,and i'm not going to leave,i love the feeling of love,it's amazing,incredible.

   Yes i have to think about it seriously ,it's not just a game,it's reponsibility,it's life,i have no right to play at it,it's not just my private thing,it relates to

   Something happy and something sad,maybe something mad.I'm totally crazy already again,i made a mistake once again,this is sagittarius,do what i want.Yeah i really cared about any thinking of anybody,but day by day,i'm not anymore,i begin to really care about my personal thinking and feeling,even i did something incredible.Yeah i fell in love again,everything just in coincidence,like a prent drama.Just happiness in my life,maybe that's too much emtional,but it's true,that's who i'm and he is.

   Yeah ,seems i'm seeing the future me ,this is a big boy, wrinkle face with fresh heart,what i care about?i know it,heart,which can fill in my groove,and we can be complementary and refelect our common interest ,so smile always on my face and his.I begin to think about my future life,and maybe i should replan my road,maybe not,now i'm a little confused.Probably we need time to think ,to consider.We are not children,we must think more about us ,a lot of things

   生活好有意思的进行着，在中国，能体会到更多的复杂与忙碌感，人行匆匆，大家头也不回埋头苦干，放佛就我一个人背着包在街上徘徊，我刻意放慢这脚步，想找回本该属于我们的那份休闲感。学生的生活一直都是让人感到惬意的，充分的时间，无比的乐趣，零度压力。

   昨天电话了某人很久，也见了某人一面，让我觉得一切都不曾逾越过过去的界限，大家都没有改变，就觉得没有改变就是最大的变化，对他们的好依旧，他们对我仍然贴心，让我感动，或许这两段感情可以这样一直珍藏下来，哪怕出国后想到他们，我会走得更有决心和自信，对感性的人来说，一份感情的斤两是无与伦比的。而我也逐步逐步发现哪些东西是我可以抛得下的，开始进入这个圈子以来，一直都觉得自己是仗着父母给的先天优势，得到这样那样的优待，虽然自己有在努力改变这一现状，但总是无济于事，因为社会给予了重重困难，想跨越不是那么容易，而也因为这样，旁人眼红，流言纷飞，但现在变了，实际上是自己有了一个比较好的基础了，或许没有那么的在意别人的想法，因为觉得我过的是自己铺设好的生活，走下去了，就不后悔了。

   其实不知道自己要说什么了，回

   回到中国，开始恢复中文，不然好像显得特别做作。回国一段时间，也见了很多以前的老朋友，大家的说法都是：“你没怎么变嘛。”呵呵，我还需要什么变化呢？变成大帅哥？大丑男？还是要增肥或减瘦？并不需要，出国一年，想法升华了，思想转变了，这就够了，对我来说这就是我人生中重大的转变，好过一切只是轻描淡写的胖瘦与身材。

   德语课已经开始了，每天学的还算蛮轻松，但是不知道为什么，事情没多少，每次回到家却是疲惫不堪，以前一直觉得上海的生活节奏快，但其实感觉上还OK，但出去后回来，对比一下，的确是很明显的，整个人每天累得不行，大城市里人来人往，生活顿时发现缺少了该有的质感与闲暇感。大家觉得做个SPA,做个MASSAGE,去上海周边玩一玩就是该有的放松，没错，这也是放松，但对每天忙碌的人来说，这不够，不过我说这个没用，社会决定了人们过怎样的生活，我自己在这里点评完全无济于事，相反或许会引来很多嘲讽的话。

   回国后，感情空白了，我也告诉自己的朋友说发现已经有很久没有性生活了，好像自己都麻木了，那个东西放佛没有占据主要的位置，所以自己解决解决就OK了。

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