╃California Dream╃

It seems like I still don't wanna grow up or I just wanna have a day to celebrate.

haven't written my blog for ages. I'm just too lazy to write. OMG, I must send so many messages that I always want to type :)& :P


很久没写博客了，其实只是懒得更新。OMG，我一定是发了太多短信导致我现在发表情老是想发 :) 和 :p


Just saw the pictures my friends posted on Renren and chated with someone on QQ, and I suddenly felt like everything is changed and most of them are unexpected.


刚刚看了朋友发到人人的照片，和几个朋友在qq上聊了几句，忽然觉得物是人非，太多的无法预期。


Ida is going to Yunnan to take the examination so she can do her master. Hui is working almost everyday and online in the midnight. S got married. D starts working now and doing his dissertation at the same time. T becomes an armyman which must be the most unexpected thing to me. And I'm at my boyfriend's flat watching him doing his coursework in UK. There are more friends whom I even don't know how they are now. Everyone has his or her ow

 

 

 

（这首歌叫California Dreamin，来自The Mamas & the Papas。说不上为什么喜欢这首歌，只是每次听到，都有点回忆过去的淡淡哀伤）

 

（This song is named California Dreamin by The Mamas & the Papas. I can't tell why I love this song. I just feel a little nostalgic and sad. ）

 

今天是博客五周岁的生日，一定要写点什么吧。

 

Today is my blog's 5th birthday, I must write something to celebrate it.

 

如果不是Joe说喜欢我的博客，我大概也不会想起来看自己开这个博客有多久了。看到的时候，正好是5年零一天，算起来，今天应该正好是它的生日吧。

 

If Joe didn't told me that he liked my blog, I would not want to  check how long I have used this blog. When I checked it, it is just 5 years and 1 day. So, today should be my blog's birthday.

 

翻看以前的博客让我想起很多事情，想起高中时候的哀伤，大学里面忙碌但是快乐的

这是第一个，完全由自己翻译和制作的视频。刚刚跟朋友说起来，我觉得应该保存在博客里做个纪念。

 

Just talked about this video with one of my friends, I think I should keep it in my blog as a souvenir.

 

【神话家族】101213_Arirang_申彗星演唱会报道

 

【Shinhwa Family】 101213_Arirang_The Report of Shin Hyesung's Concert

 

 

视频里面出现的所有中文字，都是我翻译了之后弄上去的，各种辛苦。 每次看见视频开头出现的我的名字，我都无比的激动以及想要泪奔。

 

All the Chinese in this video is translated and added by myself. It really is a hard job. At the beginning of this video, you can see my

今天打开浏览器，第一眼看到的就是数字8.9，紧接着就是 地震 两个字。前几天还跟Iris讨论了汶川地震，因为那个时候她就在四川。还跟他提起了中国08和10年两次大地震因为我告诉他我们的总理总是不顾余震的危险第一时间赶到灾区。

 

When I open my browser, the first thing I saw is the figure 8.9. And the following is earthquake. Just discussed about the earthquake in Wenchuan with Iris because she was in Sichuan during that time, and mentioned about both earthquake in China in 2008 and 2010 because I told him our premier was always the first one who arrived the area and was not afraid of the aftershock.

 

中国两次大地震的画面至今仍清晰的像是昨天，充满了悲伤，但是也满是希望和勇气。每当想起来，会觉得好像当时自己也在那里一样。每一个真正经历过那场地震的人，都是英雄。

 

the pictures of the earthquake in China are still clear just like yesterday, full of sadness but also hope and courage. Whenever I t

大姨妈来了，疼得要死。心想，写点什么或许能够减轻点痛苦吧。

 

Writing something might help release the pain.

 

想起昨天看的电影，灵欲春宵。这个翻译其实会有歧义，让人觉得是限制级的电影。直接翻译的话，应该是谁害怕弗吉尼亚 伍尔夫，是一首歌谣的名字，贯穿了整部电影。

 

Thinking about movie that we watched last night. it is translated in Chinese as desires in that night. it will lead to misunderstanding that this might be a porn movie. In fact, this is a song's name which is sung through the movie.

 

这样的故事不止放生在西方，发生在1966年那样的过去，也发生在中国，发生在现在。两个明明相爱的人却也深刻的恨着对方，永远彼此折磨、嘲讽、残忍的对待。生活中满是痛苦和绝望，却因此更无法停止伤害对方。荒诞，但是更加可悲。更糟糕的是，另一对年轻的夫妇已经有了他们的影子，一步一步，走向让人窒息的生活。

 

This not only happens in Western, in the past, but also in China, nowadays. Two people loved each other but h

想写点什么有很长一段时间了，只是不知道应该写些什么。一直到看到弟弟在我人人的留言板上写了一大片的“姐姐”。

 

Want to write something for a long time. But just don't know  what I should write down. Until I saw that my younger brother posted a lot of 'sister' on my RenRen's wall (RenRen, a kind of social network in China, just like Facebook)

 

是什么时候意识到自己长大了？已经记不得了，只是现在回想起来，才会觉得，啊，原来自己长大了。带着伤痛，带着回忆，就这么长大了。

 

When did I notice that I have grown up? Can't remember that. Only when I looked backward can I be aware that, oh, so I have grown up. With pains, with memories, just grew up.

 

很多时候还是觉得自己是个孩子，想要任性，想要为所欲为肆无忌惮。可是却有了越来越多的顾忌，会考虑后果和责任。

 

Sometimes I still think I'm a child. Still want to be wilful, want to do everything I want without thinking a lot.

I just wanna say I'm really fine with it. And I hope everything won't change and is just like what we are before the conversation. As you know, I'm strong enough. And I agree that it will be much easier and freer.

 

I didn't know why I mentioned to stay there. I think I was just out of my mind that moment. Hope that won't make you think I was trying to get something from you.

 

You don't have to comment it :) you said I could send a email, but it is really weird.