我从好几天前就开始挣扎了，到底要不要去余姚或者义乌看古天乐呢？同学说我到了现在这个年纪居然开始追星了~~我强调说追星是不理智的举动，而我，从来就没不理智过，我是经过深思熟虑的！这一年，学生生涯的最后一年，何况大部分时间还在香港，算算我喜欢了他十几年，现在不去多看看他，以后难道还有机会吗？！

    可是好像他内地的宣传活动都会是人山人海，我在想，我就算去了，能看到一眼吗？我又挤不过那些疯狂的FANS！而且没人陪我，去的话，又是我一个人~~~刚看到有人去机场接机了，还拍了合照~羡慕不已~哎，挣扎啊~~~到底要不要去呢？神啊~~~

When I got home yesterday night, I still believe everything's fine. Even my cousin picked me up at the airport, she said nothing, yes, nothing!

Then today, my dad told me that my third uncle had past away in Oct. because of high blood pressure! No one had ever told me that! My dad said they didn't want me feel sad and they just hoped that I could focus on my study. God!

What really shocked me later is not the death, it's how he dead! Yes, how! Suicide! Not high blood pressure! My dad lied because he hoped I could feel better, but my mom thought I need to know the truth. I couldn't help crying! I was sooooooo shocked and sad!

My mom told me that my uncle inclined towards low grade melancholia these months and always said he felt lonely. My mom had taken him to visit the psychologist once. However, his family didn't pay much attention on him. I just don't understand why they don't care about him, an old man who had suffered a lot from his diseases. And I began to worry about that when I am not in Hangzhou, what if something bad happens to my dad and mom? I am so scared! My parents are getting older and older, and they are actually much older then my compeers'. I always think that I have less time, at least ten years than my compeers, to get success and earn enough money to make my parents live better, which always gives me much pressure. But now, I just hope I could stay with them, and I am so uneasy when I bethink I'll soon go back to HK. I need stay with them! I promise, after graduating, I'll take them with me wherever I go. I'll never ever leave them!

     明天的这个时候我已经在家里啦！

    今天在整理带回家的东西，居然和来的时候差不多，装了满满一箱！不知道明天要怎样才能挪到深圳机场去，哎~

    前天早上在结束了最后一门课后，我火速赶到海港城去看古天乐剪彩，哈哈，在回家前还是要再看他一眼，这样我才觉得来香港读书还有点意义，不然的话，这钱花得真不怎么值得，学的东西太简单了，作业又多，所谓的又累又学不到什么东西，就是我现在的状态。前天虽然人不多，但媒体在前面基本上挡住了我所有的视线，我那时候就忍不住感慨，我应该穿双高跟鞋或者踩个高跷！幸好我和同学站对了地方，古天乐来和走的时候都是从我们面前经过的，我还拍了一小段视屏，也算是有收获吧~

    前天晚上学院还有个Ending semester party，其实就是自助餐，吃的虽然一般般，但还是蛮开心的。吃完后又和几个朋友去又一城那棵巨大的圣诞树那里拍照，相当兴奋！这是我见过的最大最辉煌的圣诞树了，有好几层楼那么高！虽然圣诞节不在香港了，但还是体会到了浓厚的圣诞气氛。一个朋友的男朋友居然说我看起来像初中生！好吧，我承认我这套衣服穿得太学生了，看来衣服还是很重要的，要装年轻，就要穿小孩子的衣服！还记得我初中的时候，竟有人问我在哪里工作！我的确是越活越年轻了！我常常想，如果现在还不抓住青春的尾巴，穿穿这样的衣服，等明年工作了，也就没有这样的机会了。可是我穿有些衣服的时候，又被人说太成熟了，难道是衣服决定了人的成熟与否？ 

圣诞树真的很漂亮

朋友说我必须弯腰，她才能把整棵树都拍进去！她是坐在地上给我拍的，超级敬业啊~

吃得蛮开心~

    一个礼拜之后的现在，我应该是准备从红磡出发了，到底是去圆方做过境巴士直达深圳机场，还是坐尖东线到罗湖出境，我到现在还没有想好，拖着个大箱子还是很不方便的！

    下个礼拜二要考试，礼拜四要presentation，之后这个学期就正式结束了！那么短的一个学期，那么辛苦的三个多月，我还是坚持下来了，哈哈，表扬下！

    祝我考试顺利！

     今天是好朋友的生日，哈哈，生日快乐！

    到明天，来香港整整三个月了，第一次离开家这么久，虽然我把自己照顾得还可以，但是总是觉得一个人在外好辛苦啊！学期接近尾声，所以好多deadline，从下个礼拜开始每周都有presentation，而且都要交report，人生啊！！！有什么办法可以不要这么辛苦呢？虽然说这种辛苦是我自己的选择。其实我最不喜欢做选择，因为每次都不确定结果会怎样，即便有不好的结果，也不能抱怨，因为毕竟是自己做的选择。

    好像好几次F1都没有看了，因为没时间，哎，等回家了再补看吧~~

    今晚我一定要把consumer behavior的individual assignment做完！做完的话就只剩下四个group project没有做了。不知道下个学期会怎么样，这学期4门课我都已经焦头烂额，精疲力尽了，下学期6门课的话，搞不好我就死在香港了！神啊~~~不知道的人还以为我在香港享福呢，其实我是在受苦啊！无依无靠的~

    希望期末一切顺利！这样我就可以安心回家休整一个月了~不过香港现在气温适宜，回杭州估计要被冻到了~哎~~

再贴点上个月去澳门的照片~

妈祖

教堂

大三巴牌坊

我在赛车博物馆开赛车，哈哈！

狂拍了好多赛车！虽然不是F1的车~

最右边这瓶酒很古老，是1815年的！

    恩，如题，再过一个礼拜的样子，到香港就三个月了，再过一个月的样子就可以放圣诞假回家了，时间就是那么匆匆，不配合任何人的脚步。

    仔细想想，开学以来，好像每天都很忙碌，都在和时间赛跑，有quiz, group project, case study, individual assignment, 还要做presentation, 真的好多事情要做啊！有时候，我做东西一下子就做到凌晨2点多，被妈妈知道的话，一定会被骂死的！哎，对身体不好，睡眠不足，但也无可奈何。

    来香港的这段时间，基本上完成了来之前定下的目标，去了古天乐的生日会，独自一人去了趟澳门，还又看见了古天乐，现在就还有个迪士尼乐园没去，春节的时候还要去趟台湾，呵呵，这一年的Master真是忙碌啊！当然最开心的就是在古天乐生日会上见到了他本人，和想象中一样，而且也很年轻啊！看来老天爷偶尔也是会偏心的~~更开心的是和古天乐合照了，还拿了3个签名，还有奖品，真是满载而归啊，哈哈，现在想起来都觉得好兴奋，但当时我居然很镇定，我真是太慢热了~

    为什么现在写中文了呢？是因为当时写英文是想练习下英文，但现在既然上课作业都全英文了，就该练下中文了。反正无所谓啦，自从写英文之后就没什么人看了，很好，要的就是这样，想写什么就写什么！我要继续奋斗了！

贴几张来香港后拍的照片，当然还有和古天乐的合照,虽然个人感觉没把我拍好!

I have been here for two weeks, everything's just going well I guess. Tomorrow is the first day of semester A and I'll take my first class in Cityu, how exciting! Though I am a little bit nervous, I'm looking forward to meeting my new classmates and our professors.

Well, I need to admit that I'm missing you guys, and my dear mom and dad, but I think the most meaningful thing I should do is fighting with my full confidence. I hope I can handle all the complicated problems that I'll meet and survive in this highly competitive environment.

Pray for me!

I'm going to leave this afternoon. Frankly speaking, I don't want to leave, after all, it's gonna be the very first time for me to leave Hangzhou, leave my family and friends.

Until now, I still don't quite understand why I choose to study in HK, maybe I just want to get the better higher education, is it true? Partly. I guess I just don't submit to the situation I am in now. Yes, that's the real reason. As I've decided to fight against the fate, why I still feel a little bit scare? I'm not sure. I'm just afraid that the choice I've made is a terrible mistake, again.

I've got to go. See you in HK.

Today is a really really really big day! I graduate from the college! We had a graduate ceremony this afternoon and I was conferred a bachelor's degree by a professor at the stage as a representative.

My roommates and I

Good weather, good day! I went to Bai Causeway this afternoon to see the peach blossoms which have been in full bloom. The Causeway was a sea of people!