Wow.. another tiring day.. but I can't be better.
I can feel the muscles on my right arm is bigger now after these 2 days of labor.
I went to dinner at 6:30pm with some friends, and got back at 9:30, hehe, we talked so much, I had a great lot of fun, listenning to those great people, or funny people, or nice people, talking. I absorb and absorb and absorb, my brain has to work hard to follow their speed of talking, and get interesting points, and react and joke around or discuss with them. it's challenging, and I think that's why I didn't manage to sleep until very late, I was too excited.

Got to talk to the big movie star Daniel Wu (wu yan zu) today, coz they needed me to translate the mason's instructions into English to him and his girlfriend.
His skin is really perfect.. but my greatest feeling is that he is just a normal human being, like us, when you see them in real life. also his gf, they are really good looking people, but they are really normal,

Wooooow~~ For quite a long time I haven't felt this way! I gotta say, I'm definitely a person who needs to be occupied with challenging work, and feel useful, where I get to meet a whole lot of new people!! I'm doing it right now, and I'm loving it!

Had some frustrated experience before I got here, so I really lowered my expectation. So now when it is happenning, I'm really thrilled!

When the project manager interviewed me, they promised me that I'll be a translator. but when I saw such a majority of the volunteers are foreigners, I thought to myself, well, maybe they don't need a translator anymore. but today when we had a meeting after lunch, I got to translate in front of the whole of over 260 national and international volunteers! Do you think that feels nice? I can tell you, yes, it does. Hahaha...

and after that, when I walked around in the field, a lot more people began greeting me. I like this really, coz this way I get to talk to more peo

Just arrived at my hotel in the small city where I'm going to spend a week, building houses. I'm already very excited..and emotional right now..which i haven't done for a long time. Have been buried in reality too long, too deep.

Put on a light guitar music, I put myself in a different mood. Changing environment can do this to us.

Smelling the air of another new city, i love doing this. When I take trains, I like getting off when they stop at each station, just to breath in the air there. It's a way of touching the city, and saying hello to that new place.

It just rained here, the air is fresh and chilly, I'm enjoying it.

Chatted with people around me when on the bus here. They are all very cool and nice peaple. The girl sitting beside me is 30 years old, a wife, and one child's mother. We got into conversations that maybe only very close friends can have immediately.I enjoyed it a lot. She volunteered to be a teacher in a poor villag

National Day is coming. This year it’s even more special, as it’s the 60^th birthday of the People’s Republic of China. I could never imagine I would write an article on this topic, coz the way people act and talk about the greatness of the country and Chairman Mao blindly seems stupid to me. I think the majority of them are just saying things they don’t even feel inside them. To me, nations are created by only a few people with politics ambitions, or fueled by human’s instinct of the sense of belonging to a group from ancient time when we were still monkeys. Chinese people consider China greater than other countries; Americans think of America the best nation in the world; French people think themselves the greatest people… what’s the point? Countries are just areas located in different places on this planet and happen to have a different name. The blind enthusiasm about the one we just happened to be born in doesn’t seem reasonable according to my outlook.

 

刚刚从山里回来，人生第一次正式的徒步，露营。我感慨不已，这次旅行我感到一定会改变我这一生以后的旅行方式。我想做一个真正的户外人。

 

前天早上打开收音机，漫不经心地听，听到一个发布拼客的信息，便随便打电话过去问问，于是这就成为了我认识这些奇人，牛人，怪人，好人的开端，他们打开了我看待旅行，看待世界，看待人生的一扇崭新的窗。（所以这个经历告诉我们，听广播绝对是个好习惯！呵呵）

 

上了大巴发现人家互相都认识的，他们经常一起出去户外徒步登山之类的，早已是熟人，大家很亲热地以彼此的网名相称。还有点怕会不会一路我被孤立，没人和我玩。等蜘猪侠（我从广播里得到的联系人，我一直跟他联系的）上车，他直接问“上海来的那个呢？”我举手，他就把包往我旁边一放，说“我就坐这了”。我就一下子放心了，组织者罩着我呢，呵呵。后来那网站的老板（也经常跟网友一起出来玩）起哄让我站起来跟大家打招呼，一下子我就融入进去了。蜘猪侠是有点腼腆的男孩子，但是人非常善良非常热情，几乎总是他组织，忙前忙后，忙里忙外，义务性的。大家都玩着，说笑着，他得操着心。收钱啊，点人数啊，路上走最后盯着有没有

I haven't felt so close to myself for a long time. This trip makes me feel alive again.

 

I am at an intersection of my life again, and I think I'll be lonely for a while again, like when I just came to Shanghai. Things will be new, experience will be new. And I won't have a roommate to talk with. I will be all alone most of the time.

So I think I'll come back to this home more often again, to talk with myself, to reflect, to feel that I belong to somewhere, in the hope that maybe I'll have some audience, making me feel less lonely. And normally at this kind of time, you think a lot, so that can be something interesting to write down to keep, and if that's only bouncing in my own head, it'll kill me, hehe.

 

A lot of things changed. I quit my job, carrying out a new plan; Fang Weiwei left, going to a far far away place; I don't know where I'm going even, in a month time. This feeling will be so uneasy, unsafe, but exciting

最近把自己逼得很紧，除了工作，就是跑步和学习英语。不逼紧也是闲待着，不如多做点事情。这是我的人生万千信条之一。

 

很久没有像今天一样了。其实之前我的生活也差不多都是这样，特别在周末的时候。

上午学习，下午去见个客户，然后和一个学生在公园里打羽毛球，踢毽子。满身大汗，酣畅淋漓。这孩子打得不好，还号称很好，要知道能这么轻易被我打败，才不要跟他浪费我时间 开玩笑了，其实活动开了很舒服。

在这样欢畅的情绪下，晚上去莫干山路的画廊聚集地中的“半度音乐咖啡”(http://www.bandumusic.com/)听中国民乐。这真是个很不错的地方，坐在音乐雨棚里，喝着一杯热茶听现场，古筝，二胡，琵琶，美到陶醉。

音乐咖啡的老板，本人是个音乐奇人，玩古琴，他又兼主持，在一曲结束的时候，它总会加一点评论，介绍，解释，所以每次听还能学到不少音乐和乐器的知识，他会告诉大家这一段演奏得哪里好，哪里不好，技巧如何，感情表达得如何，慢慢地你也学会鉴赏民乐了，也就提高了自己的音乐素养，所以真是一个很

这是我人生第一次做义工，也是我一直想做的事情。

和一个老外组织去上海浦东的一个民工子弟学校，教孩子们刷牙，讲解刷牙的好处，陪他们玩。

觉得真的很有意义，以后我会经常做这样的事情。

 

首先，我确实看到了一个挺漂亮的小姑娘，我问她刷不刷牙，她说才开始刷。一笑，黑黑的牙垢。很不忍看。以前我并不觉得重要。去之前，我的朋友John跟我说，这确实是很重要的一件事。他说他很羡慕我有beautiful smile，但是有很多人，长得并不难看，但是一笑，一口黄的或灰的牙齿，这会影响到他们的自信，他们的一生，特别在工作场合。我觉得也很有道理。所以要从孩子的时候让他们养成好习惯。

 

其次，其实是我觉得更重要的一点。给孩子们爱。让他们感到，这个世界上，还有更多的人关心他们。我的刚刚生了孩子的法国学生和我聊天很多最近。她告诉我：Love builds the children. 他们在小的时候，接收到更多的爱，长大以后他们会有更好的心，更强的心。我同意。今天在去的出租车上，我和一个同去的加拿大人争论。他不同意我的观点。我告诉他，在我还在幼儿园的时候，我的老师就常常把我和另一个比较可爱的女孩子抱在腿上，而

No matter how strong you thought you’ve already become, there are still moments that shock you when you find yourself falling apart at some music which you used to listen to in a certain period in the past.

I’ve just wrote something new on my blog, saying how happy I am now with the person I am, the condition I have, and strongness I’ve grown into.

But just now, those music almost took my heart out. Past is never passed, you just forget them temporarily. When something brings you back to that time, you simply want to cry.

 

Tonight, in the past 1 hour, first, some romantic songs brought me back to when I just broke up with my first boyfriend. Those nights, I listened to them everyday, thinking about us, trying to get over but just couldn’t.

Then, some flute music brought me back to when I lived in Suzhou with Fang in our little apartment. At that time, we were so mostly unhappy, but we kept cheering each other. I was as if once again sitti

过了最没有娱乐的一个年，除了三十儿晚上有个party，从初一到今天初四，一直在上班，或者在家翻译东西，先是觉得挺凄凉的。又经历了一些分分合合，看明白了一些类的人，多明白了一些的事。

此刻，上海正下着雨，天空是诡异的红色，有点美。

 

手里拿着一本迫不及待想要读的书，想着，有自己喜欢的事情可以做，真是富足；

对着电脑即将开始翻译的工作，心想，有能力去工作，有机会去工作，真是富足；

和朋友聊着天，有好久不联系的地球另一端的朋友，有几天没见的最亲近的室友，分享心情，彼此的生活，互相鼓励，心想，有真正的朋友，我真的很富足；

网上有学生约我周末一起出去玩，手机上有短信来，也约我周末的时间，要和我PK乒乓球（中英友谊赛），心想，有人争着要见我，我真是很富足；

想想自己25岁了，到了这个已经不小的年纪，并没有让自己失望，成为了一颗自己想要拥有的心，还仍然每天做着不同的梦，计划着不同的要做的事情，觉得自己的脚步越走越轻快，自己的心越来越年轻，心想，真是很富足的；

能够有如此这样丰富的人生经历，能够遇到这么多优秀的，特别的，各不相同的可爱的人，而我们自