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今天我一大学同学来杭州出公差。毕业后我没回过北京所以一年多没见过面了。上大学的时候他就是一挺洒脱的人。对于他来说，没有绝对的道理，他愿意去质疑一切所谓“真理”，而性格又很天真烂漫。和大家关系都不错。

我们工作都忙，只抽得两个小时一起吃个饭，不约而同，都对当下的生活有所抱怨。然而他比我洒脱得多，很淡定的说“这趟公差回去我就辞职”。

临行前给我讲了他最近的一个奇特的经历。当然，是真实的，分享给学音乐的大家。

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他说曾经在大学的时候加了学校里一玩游戏的QQ群，近日也是偶然间，看群里有一人卖自用二手12弦的吉他。因为12弦的吉他比较少，他就觉得有点兴趣买一把。

然 后让我这位洒脱的同学完全想不到的是，顺着对方留下的地址找过去，居然是一个十分老旧又破烂的建筑。我问有多破烂？筒子楼那种？同学说比筒子楼还不如得 多，又细又长的走道只能过一个人。然而进了屋子就更让人惊讶，那屋子里只有一张不太宽的床，床的两头就顶着屋子的两头了。而屋子的宽呢，也仅仅刚好能在床 边放下一张写字台而已，连过一个人都过不去。

对方那哥们儿和我们是同校同一届，也04的，毕业了，北漂。是我们这所全国一流的艺术类大学里相对不太艺术的一个专业的。

我同学说当时看了这情景就觉得心头一种莫名的难过，这就是真实的“蜗居”，而对象就是离自己很近的同学。

然而让人惊奇的是，这位“蜗居”的哥们儿，从小没有学过一天音乐，却对音乐有着狂热的热爱。他不仅自己灌录了非常多的CD，还攒钱买吉他，甚至买了专业声卡和专业话筒。这次之所以卖琴，也是因为已经买了更好的新琴。

我 和我这位同学是同班，都是学录音工程，我们明白买这些设备对于穷学生来说是多大的开销。更况且，那位卖琴的同学还“蜗居”在那样的环境下，音乐既不是他的 工作，也不是他的专业。突然回头看看我们自己，我们有宽敞的房子，有不算太好但相对稳定的工作，有支持我们买设备的父母。而我们当中有多少人买了声卡买了 话筒以后，用它们做出过一首好歌的？

我的那位洒脱的同学，和“蜗居”的那哥们儿聊了许久，也买下了那把琴。临行，那哥们儿非要留下我同学的地址，我同学没多想也就留了。此次出差不久，我这同学家里来了一电话，说收到一份快递，里面是一张自己灌录的CD。

我很好奇问“听了吗？怎么样？”

很可惜因为出差还没回过家，所以还没有办法听，但是说，非常期待。

故事到这里就讲完了，想起了我自己那台当初当成宝贝一样的KORG M3，自从被一个技术问题卡住以后，已经好几个星期没有摸过它了。当初第一次听到它的声音时的那种感动呢？怎么那么轻易就溜走了呢？

没想到的事情有很多，它们还是发生了：

上小学2年的时候还是小队长，老师来家访的时候妈妈说‘我们家妞妞什么时候能有三道杠啊？’没想到5年级的时候就真的有三道杠了；

上初中的时候我喜欢看灌篮高手，虽然把三井的座右铭贴满桌子和笔盒，也没想到大学里我一场没上还能混到个篮球冠军；

别笑啊我的偶像是周杰伦，有一次我和朋友说我的理想是写一首周杰伦那种风格的歌，帮周杰伦录一次音，没想到后来真的写出了那么一首，也真的在调音台前做了周董的现场直播；

93年申奥失败，我说我长大以后一定要去奥运会现场工作的，没想到后来就去了，还是在我最爱的足球比赛；

当然我没想到的也不见得都是美梦成真，

比如我从来没想过我居然参加工作没几天就工伤躺了3个月。。。

还有些事是不到那个年纪不会去考虑的，

比如挂红领巾的时候没有想过会拒绝入党；

比如直到高二前都没想过会去读艺术类；

比如上大学前我没想过自己会接触WOW；

比如大学毕业的时候没想过自己会出国。

没想过的事情就这样发生了，不管你愿意不愿意只能follow。

人在不断地改变。

兰迪.波许教授说要坚持最初的梦想。他的许多事在梦想开始之初或许也是‘没想过’的。

但是人还是在不断地改变。

我最初的梦想是什么？

我自己当时嘴巴说得最多的，大概是‘去维也纳当钢琴家’。。。太不靠谱了

实际上呢？实际上当时我没有什么庞大的梦想，梦想的事情基本上是吃好穿好玩好。

我觉得应该调整一下欲望的方向。

作为一个女人，事业上是否真的要有那么多追求？

是否该开始梦想有一个健康的身体和心智，能开启任何新旅程的能量？

为什么要跟随大众的时间码呢？

十几岁读书考大学，二十几岁拼搏事业找对象，三十几岁为人妻照顾孩子，四十几岁更年期一来觉得自己好时光已去。。。

没有准备好的阶段，就不应该强迫自己进去吧。

25岁的时候我做出我自己的第一个人生选择，它带给我的不是一件‘没想到’的事，还是一个‘没想到’的世界。

我是抓出了‘没想到’的尾巴，还是开启了‘没想到’的大门呢？

This week is the proposal week. Lucy and I chose to be the first one because it won't make us nervous. It's our first presentation in this university and therefore we have received some encouragements from other students. We chose to use Chinese Shadow play as our theme and it is not surprise that most students chose to use animation as their MOS.

The most interesting topic is 'animals are beautiful people'. It's a movie about the drunken animals. The designing group said they even wanna to add some Australia animals' sound although the story was happend in Africa. After they played some Australia animals' sound, I think actually this idea may be work.

Two gourps have chosen the same animation film 'Day and Night'. They think it gives a big space for sound design. But for me this one seems a little bit hard because the image itself contains almost all the imformation of the story.

Anyway, I'm highly expecting the final presentation of our project now.

The first part of today's class is the reviewing of last week's class. Then we went to a new concept which called 'Gestalt'. It is about a concept that the sum of the whole is greater than its parts. We watched several examples, and it's magic works on everyone in the class.

From this point, we can 'stretching sound to help the mind see' (Jacqnes Tati). It's a very important guideline for sound design. Therefore, Lucy and I decided to use it in our project.

I think this 'Gestalt' effect is reversible. When we give the audience a scene that shows a person walking, we can use any sound for his footstep. Our mind will automatically recognize this sound as the footstep of the man.

In the second part of the class, Micheal talked about some other unconventional concept of sound design. The first one is Anempathetic sound. It is a conspicuous indifference to what is going on in a film's plot, possibly thereby enhancing a sense of the tragic. Other concept including 'Anthropocentric sound'and 'Pareidolia'. But the most interesting one is  the McGurk Effect. It shows that a combination of visual 'ba' and acoustically 'ga' is a feelking of 'da'. Even most students in the class has a acoustics background, this effect still worked.

Today’s lecture introduced several great pioneers in the film history.

Burn in a traditional Chinese family, I do not have many opportunities for exposure to foreign films. For example , although I know the name ‘Kurosawa’, but I have never watched any film of him. Not to mention that he’s great ideas about sound film.

Another great pioneer is Eisenstein, who is considered as ‘the father of montage’. We watched a small part of he’s silent film. The interesting thing is that although it is a silent film, the music in the background is not rigid. Combined with the montage elements, the music shows great power in that scene. Eisenstein also brings a concept of using sound in films. He stated that ‘only a contrapuntal use of sound in relation to the visual montage piece will afford a new potentiality of montage development and perfection.’ Nearly 100 years have passed, Asynchronism, has become the principle of sound film. When we look back into the history of sound film, these great concepts are still shining.

Now I’m thinking about the question that Michael gave us in the first class: what is sound design? Do we need a career called sound design? At least I have released that the sound design is a creative job, it is not what you hear is what you seen, it can gave you more.

After the first week, I am getting used to the class now. I chose to sit in the middle of the first row, which is assumed as the best position for listening. The opening viewing was Charlie Chaplin’s ‘Behind the Screen.’ Although he is really famous, I am still not familiar with him.

However, I think it is true that we need the energy from the Predecessors. I felt quite proud when the Chinese Shadow Plays was show in Michael’s slides: actually, it’s my first time notice that Shadow Plays was originated from my hometown Hangzhou. (I have checked the data after class and I think it was earlier than Song Dynasty) Is there any relationship between Shadow Plays and sound design? The answer is for sure. Shadow Plays have its sound which usually played by the one who play these shows. The spirit continues today: the sound is an essential part of the shows.

Then we watched the opening of Wim Wenders’ Wings of Desire. The sound design of this film was so good that when it was played it made me entirely focused on the film itself. When we looked back with the question of ‘what should be the sound of an angel’, we have to say that the sound designer have done a quite exquisite work. One interesting thing is that the environmental sound in the plane has been used as the real beginning of a grand string, since tone continued between this two.

We have not got any chance to watch Metropolis (Fritz Lang, 1927), but I watched it on my laptop at home. I noticed that there must be two different vision of the sound track. But what I found was a sound track without any stop. Since it is a film more than 2 hours and all the lines were showed in German words, it made me exhausted finally. However, if only talk about the film itself, I should say that was an unbelievable work. The effects use in the film was quite ahead of its time and the story is imaginative. In general, we can see the limitation of silent film through this experience and think about the role that the sound plays in a film.

We have not got any chance to watch Metropolis (Fritz Lang, 1927), but I watched it on my laptop at home. I noticed that there must be two different vision of the sound track. But what I found was a sound track without any stop. Since it is a film more than 2 hours and all the lines were showed in German words, it made me exhausted finally. However, if only talk about the film itself, I should say that was an unbelievable work. The effects use in the film was quite ahead of its time and the story is imaginative. In general, we can see the limitation of silent film through this experience and think about the role that the sound plays in a film.

Sound Design for New Media 2001

Week 1

As the first class for my postgraduate study, this class can be described as a ‘not bad’ beginning.

Actually, I felt quite nervous when I notice that I’m the only Chinese student here. Not as other pop major such as accounting, audio and acoustics is still a field without the invasion of Chinese students. For me, it can be a bad thing as well as a good thing.

The teacher’s speaking is quite clear and he is very friendly. I think I can understand 70%-80% of his lecture with the help of his ppt slices. However, I can’t catch up the meaning of some jargons, especially from the local students’ speaking. I’ve done my best to guess their abstract expression_rs with the clue of the teacher’s comments on their participation. But I’m still not sure about how much I’ve got from this class.

As an introduction to sound design, a film directed by Chris Marker called Sans Soleil has been played without any sound. We were encouraged to imagine the expected sound of this ‘MOS’. The images showed in this film were quite dull and without relationships. I have no idea what it is talking about but at least I have got some feelings about a sad mood. I didn’t hands up since I’m still not confident about my second language. But later I discovered that my prediction of the sound track was quite right when the real sound track of this movie has been played: there is a voice who states some clues of the whole screenplay, no music, and the environment sound didn’t change as the scene changed.

I’m not an enthusiastic fan of movie, but I have some similar experience about this kind of sound design. One is from a website called Mediastorm. The website use lots of still images to make small films to tell the stories. To give the audience a clue, they use some simple words from the main character of these stories or some sound from the environment where these stories have taken place. This has made the audience put more attention on the still images and make those images more powerful. The second one was from a movie directed by Lou Ye, who is the representative of Chinese ‘Sixth Generation’ directors. His film Summer Palace (2006), which is forbidden in China, has also showed this kind of experimental spirit.

With regards to the other contents of the first class, I feel they are not as interesting as the exercise in the beginning. However, they have made a good emphasis on the importance of sound design. Within the scope of new media, or at least media, I personally feel that the visual effects are still the foundation of any sound design, although through different design we can make totally different meanings. The concept showed in the documentary of ‘9.11’ is quite instructive: more than reality. I’ve been thinking about this expression_r several times after class. I think the spirit is that we making sound of what we want to listen rather then what we should hear, and that is design.

应该有好些年了吧，每年过生日的时候就会写一篇日志，纪念自己无法停止向前翻滚的一年一岁。

今年的生日过得，怎么说呢，悠悠的~

并非最糟的一个生日，虽然没有蛋糕，没有蜡烛，甚至身边没有哪怕一个认识的朋友。

也许是因为在这样的日子里，我意识到在我身上发生的一切改变，它们真的发生了，并且——是我让它们发生的。是我踏出了旋转人生轨道的这一步，让这个生日变得和以往不同。

我依旧记得去年的生日，16个小时的工作，演播厅里嘈杂下寂寞的心灵。今天比去年更好么？不得不说，我身边依旧空空的。然而却能够有一丝空隙去放逐心灵。

我在这一天所做的事情，是睡到自然醒。雨天，于是没有打电话给任何人，自己一个人坐了一辆bus到city，点了一盘不贵的生日面，作为生日，又给自己点了一份平日不会去吃的甜点。怎么说也要甜一点吧，对自己这样说着。

平静地看着周遭的一切，想着他们每个人表情的背后是否也和我一样缺乏归属感。

在这个陌生的，却又美丽得让人心疼的城市里，如果一切日子都像今天，没有和任何人说过任何一句话，那么我是否是一个鬼魂？

我不想在13号的当天去给朋友们打电话，怕没有人打给我的尴尬，所以提前一天让我先打给你们吧。也许是天各一方了，也许是因为吃饭再也不是想吃就吃的惬意了，我是如此思念103的姐妹。虽然这些日子姑娘们分的分，闹的闹，挣扎着或是舔舐自己的伤口，但依旧地，你们有相互抚慰的可能。

我想起那些大学时代无谓的眼泪，莫名其妙的酒醉，那番“想当年”的说辞；亦有我年少时不羁和轻狂，荒唐的自以为是。想起我双子座的花心，挂念着每一双纤长的手，每一个拨动我心弦的音符。想起和大葱那些漫无目的浪费时光的聚餐，或是我那些无处投递的心思。

懒兔子和老大在电话里给我唱了一首生日歌。我就是我，怎么样都不会矫情的。但我在心里哭了。

"everyone has a little girl in the body, sometimes they try inside"昨天一个家伙对我说。这句毫无征兆的话语点到了我那块柔软的肉，我哭了，inside。

我选择了一个人，他，当然不完美。选择了就要接受一切的不完美，要妥协，要把自己的刺一根一根拔去或者软化，收拢它们。拔刺的过程当然痛苦，不过荒谬的时刻在于拔完了刺之后一照镜子，发现不认识镜子里的我了。直到今日我都不知道是否这是一份过大的牺牲，也没有清楚的意识关于我究竟得到了些什么。但第一次有父母家人之外的人给我做饭，盖被子，问候冷暖。我需要被照顾。我要做一只受伤的猫，请一直照顾我。

这个生日过完，也就快3年了。3年前我们说要证明给那些怀疑我们的人看，我们是有未来的。3年后，眼看着这个冲动的决定真的要得到证明了，我发现，他，不，我们，都老了。笑着笑着就挤出了一道一道的皱纹。刺眼的阳光暗淡起来，接着是材米油盐，非浪漫。

我摆脱不了的是WOW。快5年了吧。竟然开始了美服。我从未想过我会离开国服，然而，让我惊奇的是，我花了数不清的金子和眼泪的红发，居然不见了。他丫的网易就这样让它连个屁都没放的，消失了。

我平静了，接受这一切，旧的不去新的不来，一切美好的记忆，既然都说了是记忆，就不要再起来勾引我了。

当我回顾我荒诞的WOW人生，发现那些个人物甚至在某种程度上超越了真是世界的人，我想念那一个个YD无比的声音，那一段2B的人生。我的心里希望我回到那个昏天黑日的大二，天天外卖+6小时睡眠的垦荒。

美服，就和sydney一样，美丽却冷冷的。我永远是那个游离之外的人。anyway，这个世界总是这样的，有好人也有外人，就像消消说的，wow是另一个世界。

我不想再老下去了。却也不想停滞不前。我依然持有那一丁点儿的对无限可能的畅想。我还在挣扎，只不过，到了这个陌生又庞大的平台上。

deserve是一个有意思的词。Simon第一次告诉我的时候，觉得哎呀，这个词应该会很好用。

但是世界上真的有deserve的事情么？

这几天身边有几位女性好友感叹时光飞逝青春不在，闭眼前还在嘲笑别人是白骨精，一睁眼自己已然变成了大龄未婚女青年。

究其原因当然很多，但是不可否认的一定是太天真。太固执太任性太想要个王子。

社会上很多言论说这些女青年标准太高。但是降低标准真的解决问题么？在无法瞬间改变男人的总体水平的前提下，似乎该宣传让女人降低标准，来获取社会安定。这里且不说愈演愈烈的拜金之风，我就说我身边这些女孩儿吧，有些说实话那长得真是比马诺还不如的多了，但是要求也还是蛮高的。尤其是，这要求会水涨船高，会攀比。

想起似乎是李欣频的一段话。说很多女孩子困惑感情。她建议首先不应依赖感情而活。其次，想要一份好的感情，就先把自己变成一个好的人。意思就是说，如果你的欲望总是膨胀，那么你要做的，不是做白日梦，而是完善自己，以找到那个符合你标准的人。

所以，标准可以高。只是，这高标准背后靠的不是不靠谱的缘分，而是自身的完善。

需要补充的是，对于这种完善，有的人的理解是高学历好工作， 有的人的理解是漂亮脸蛋和气质， 有的人理解是金钱地位，也有人理解为心态的平和。说实话这取决你于人的标准是什么。但无疑心态的修行最为艰难，但却是最经得起的考验的。

与诸位共勉。