是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡让人家不安
才会结果都阵亡

我没有什黱阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱何况那算什黱伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎请别以为你有多难忘
笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎是很感谢今晚的相伴

spotlight shining brightly,
on my face
i can't see a thing and yet
i feel you walking my way
empty stage,
with nothing but this girl
singing this simple melody
and wearing her heart
on her sleave

and right now
i have you, for a moment
i can tell i've got you
cuz your lips don't move
something is happening
cuz your eyes
tell me the truth
i've put a spell over you

beauty emanates from
every word that you say
you've captured

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
'Hey, you know, this could be something'
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I don't know where I'm at
I'm standing at the back
And I'm tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I'll find what I've been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I'm going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it's coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
That I could be missing
I'm missing way too much
So when do I give up what I've been wishing for

I'd walk back
Into the time we never had
Truth be told
I never thought I'd feel this bad
But I do

Swallow down
There's nothing more for me to do
Than let this die
'Cause there's not room for this and you
In this heart

So I'll stop before I'll start
To

换了这么有活力的颜色和形象，充满希望的绿色，淹没在阳光里模糊不清的树叶，着实不是我的风格，更不是现在内心的真实写照。

Anyway, I need to lay low for a while, or drop out the face of the earth completely.

现在还没有快乐和希望的资本，也没有奢望乐观的信心。May I do the victory laugh later.

It's scary to pick up all the subtle changes in your life. Things you used to hate turn out to be fairly interesting and slightly tempting. The sudden lost of real identity and the overwhelming fear of uncertainity just won't scream the word 'good'.

Life is more or less a merry-go-round. A lot of people picture it to be sensational because of the scenery. I suppose the real point or rather, the problem, lies not in the constant change of view, but the fact that it never proceed. It's just

也许是那天他的自杀，也许是毫无希望的准备工作，也许是别人忙碌的身影，最近很容易把自己和别人做对比。大学四年的游荡日子，为零的成就，倒退的知识和技能，空空的阅读书目，成堆成堆的娱乐和放纵，一片无谓的美剧，打着各种各样堂而皇之的旗号逃避现实，不停的用睡眠、发呆和食物填补心中找不到源头却又真实得生疼的无底洞。还是一分耕耘，一分收获吧，于是在这本该轻松收获的季节乱了阵脚，望着自己荒芜的田地，孤注一掷的将本就微薄的希望赌博在唯一的筛子上。Blow it and wish me good luck.

对自己职业的转型和选择说不出喜

It's not my summer, not for anyone, really. 最近接触了太多的死亡，都有些不真实的伤感了。先是亲人的离去，再有朋友的放弃，生命的意义就如顺着马桶水旋转的碎纸片，无力的被吸进肮脏的黑洞，找不到存在的理由，却又固执的不肯放手。

对自己的人生作检讨，放纵和努力的念头嘲弄着做着斗争，不相上下的在心底漂浮着。人生苦短，而我的人生就像一张苍白无力的纸，缺少基本的刺激和活过的迹象。也许是拥有了太多，一切来得太容易，于是感觉不到幸福的味道。一切的完美带来沉重的内疚感，让我无法就这样放手。