奔腾的女人

从今天开始，我不在是一个坐在教室里求学的学生了。（虽然在英国学习的这一年我好像也没再教室里学到什么东西，全是图书馆自学。。）面对突然身份的改变，还是有点感慨的。

一是对于到目前为止作为学生的各种感受，幼儿园阶段大脑发展不健全的那些玩耍，小学阶段变成拉帮结派，跟死党开始说老师坏话，到了初中疯狂围观帅哥和遇到臭味相投的老友很贱的不断互相嘲笑，高中在应试教育的环境下跟压力做斗争，幸亏还有低年级正太给学姐我偶尔垂涎一下解解渴。跟6年终极校友之间的互动总是最精彩和难忘。大学，其实根本称不上大学应该是打酱油的北京3年让我大开眼界，神马尺度的雷人都见过了。过去常听说人生最好的朋友在初中高中都遇到了，我想说北京3年我还是淘到了几个好友，他们也让我学到了不少东西。到了英国这最后

Since then, I’ve made up my mind to be far away from you by canceling my Facebook account after graduation. Determining to do that, apparently, you are not the only reason. Before doing that I deleted your number firstly, with my wetting eyes saying farewell to the old good times.

It’s so cruel that things always go like this. I know things never turn out to be what I have expected. However, this time it proved again it was me who failed to maintain and develop the relationship.

I may have undergone being given a bad reputation. You may feel disgust every single time you see me afterwards. Friends may think I am to blame as well. I could expect nothing anymore a

you've got to make your own running here

eventhough it is inevitable that everyone is making a comparision between the two.

you should bare this in mind--you are not going to ware the previous person's shoes.

respond new situations brilliantly, be your self!

the attitudes determind the ultimate alalttitude.

a tree is full of strengths of characteristics

strong viability, firm,uprising, loyalty and perseverance

it stands on one spot and never changes inherently regardless of external unexpected changes

no doubt that we all wish to have one person who will be there for you always and never leave

do you?

well, absolutel

I clearly know that I have never kept a diary for more than 3months. therefore I am not making a promise of starting to keep a diary now. however today I'd like to write down a shor period diary of the pass several days in memorizing something.

22.03

The spring comes so late here in England that I nearly kind of loose temper. but thanks to the sunshine on 22.03 which soften my heart. Renee and I went to the Wollaton Park that day. all I can say is What a nice day and what a lazy afternoon! the bus driver was really nice when he was pointing the right direction for us; the castle like meseum is far beyond amazing; also the swans in the lake are so lovely. apart from the nice smelling coffee and english cake that we had there, we took loads of fantastic photos that day! well, you may say I am a freak if I tell you I still went to a seminar after we left the park.

23.03

I washed my hair this morning and dressed well before we

那天我来到诺丁汉图书馆，问管理员借了一本公司名录来找一个合适的公司来写报告。拿到书我就在靠近门口的地方坐了下来，心里想着已经是第三天了，还是找不到一个合适的公司就疯掉了！今天一定要给我找到！

看了大概15分钟，注意力就不集中了。刚想发呆，右眼余光看到有人在旁边整理东西。察觉到他在整理摄影器材的时候我就忍不住侧过头看看是谁了。

右转45度，看到原来是一个英国中年男人。他首先跟我打招呼：你好。

没错，用中文的！

然后我也说：你好。

说完我就回过头了，没想到他坐下来开始想跟我攀谈。

‘I'm a photographer.’

好了，他这句话就足够引起我的注意了，谁叫我对摄影感兴趣呢。

他的介绍很给力啊，什么漂亮模特，天鹅，中国春节场面，甚至Selina他都拍过。还秀那些图片给我看。我也不知道是真是假，他说他有个台湾女友，他连Selina拍戏烧伤都晓得。我不在乎他说的事情的真假，他那些天鹅照和视频已经够吸引我的注意的了。因为我没见过天鹅。

我以为所有的英国人都是基督徒，或者无神论者。他雷人般的告诉我他信佛！还头头是道的告诉我佛教的前世今生和因果关系神马的。他那认真的眼

偏执幻想是女生的共性

我就常常构想数不完的美丽童话

我的童话里有你弹吉他浪漫的唱歌给我听

有我们大方的边吃冰激凌边手挽手走在大街上

偶尔故意的把冰激凌弄到你的下巴然后把你推到墙角，我贴上去把它舔干净

还有我假装穿高跟鞋穿到脚酸撒娇要你背我

然后我遮住你的双眼，要你很信任我，听着我的指示横穿马路，直到有美丽的霓虹灯装饰的摩天轮下才把手拿开

你看到美丽的夜景很兴奋，轻轻的转头吻我

你还很喜欢看我在厨房给你下厨的背影，每次我煮的东西你都吃得精光

你每天醒来都会先温柔的亲吻我的额头然后问我睡得好不好有没有梦到你

。。。

然而

你不要我做你女朋友

你不弹吉他不唱歌

拒绝和我上街

把我背到出租车就放下

你背着我睡

你不跟我说早上好

你赶我走

童话都是骗人的

现实欺骗我

我还自己骗自己

我张开双手变成翅膀才不是为了守护你而是为了保护我自己

在街角独自落泪的时候寒风几乎让我的双腿颤抖得不能站立

一次次鼓起勇气去爱

一次次杯具的受伤

可能我以后将

英国的葱真可爱

带土卖的

第一次用的时候我生猛的连土拔起

后来为了省力气就用刀割

结果过了几天发现刀割过的部分会长新的出来

嫩绿嫩绿的

都说出国了会胖

我怎么越来越瘦了

瘦到腹肌疼

牛仔裤都宽咯

洋酒后劲十足

我每喝必醉

上周新生PARTY还没开始我就已经醉了

进场还要排队

醉醺醺的我在寒风中排

先把材料一一处理，放好（这边鸡肉超级白，像漂白过的一样）：

挤入番茄酱！

洒下黑椒粉咖喱粉还有不知名粉。。

很尴尬的说，我来英国晚了一天。我居然忘记老外生活悠闲，商店5点关门，周末大部分休息，周末学校关门无法报道，并且走在街上人影稀疏，路过一个墓地反倒觉得比较有生气。 哎，从头说起。到达伦敦希斯罗机场已经是晚上8