失业实录--老天饿不死瞎家雀(2009-07-11 23:54)
不能认输!不能认输!这不是妥协的时候!妥协将没有尽头!
不能继续这样下去,我必须努力争取,不能放弃自主权!
我可以低头跟随,但这不是我的选择!
这是原则,我不能做一个没有话语权的跟班!
我的好脾气因为我不愿看见争斗,但不表明我软弱!
谁也别想当我是软柿子,白羊座自来有不屈的天性!
来吧,试试看!
我相信我能自己创造一番天地,我志在必得!
2009年07月07日(2009-07-07 16:11)
"一旦你学会了怎样去死,你也就学会了怎样去活."
很多人,也许是绝大多数普通人,大约都和我一样,对死亡有种恐惧感.活得好好的,说什么死不死呢.莫里老师说:每个人都知道自己要死,可没人愿意相信。如果我们相信这一事实的话,我们就会作出不同的反应。'
在生命无限长的时候,我们无限制地拖延应该做的事情,因为反正有明天.而当生命变得有限,我们会立刻去做想到的事情,珍惜每一天的生命,于是生命会变得充满意义.
事实上,我是先看的米奇阿尔伯姆的<你在天堂遇到的五个人>,然后才看的<相约星期二>,但我却更喜欢后者,因为相比之下,<相约星期二>少了些许梦幻色彩而变得更加真实,触手可及,就好似我们也会经历的生活一样,平实而引人思考.
<相约星期二>本身就来自真实的事件,在书的开篇,米奇阿尔伯姆说:
我的老教授一生中的最后一门课每星期上一次,授课的地点在他家里,就在书房的窗前,他在那儿可以看到淡红色树叶从一棵小木槿上掉落下来。课在每个星期二上,吃了早餐后就开始。课的内容是讨论生活的意义,是用他的亲身经历来教授的。
不打分数,也没有成绩,但每星期都有口试。你得准备口答问题,还得准备提出问题。你还要不时干一些体力活,比如把教授的头在枕头上挪动一下,或者把眼镜架到他的鼻梁上。跟他吻别能得到附加的学分。
课堂上不需要书本,但讨论的题目很多,涉及到爱情,工作,社会,年龄,原谅,以及死亡。最后一节课很简短,只有几句话。
毕业典礼由葬礼替代了。
虽然没有课程终结考试,但你必须就所学的内容写出一篇长长的论文。这篇论文就在这里呈交。
看到这段的时候,每每我总忍不住眼眶的湿润,这不动声色的几句让我感觉到莫里老师沉甸甸生命的重量,让我感动于他泰然与死亡相处的安定平和.
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失业实录--快乐只需翻过墙头(2009-07-07 14:11)
有一些挚爱是确定并且永久不变的,比如说久石让的音乐.从千与千寻初次听他,一直到入殓师,他的音乐总能给我拨动心弦的感动.重听天空之城,才发现,那旋律始终藏在心中,不曾离开过.即使曾经努力去寻找探索新的风格未知的感动,求知欲推我向前,最后会发现,熟悉的旋律仍如家般有种老旧的温煦.或许你的意识忙着感知新鲜的刺激,但老旧的它总在潜意识中默默等待你不经意回首的那一刹那,给你一个温暖的眼神.
总是匆匆向前赶路,我已经开始忘记玩味路旁的风景了.今天觉得有点累,我想停下来休息休息,不为了达成某个数量而去奔命.这本应是件轻松享受的事情,那么就回到熟悉的地方静静闲坐一下下.然后再继续前行.
可笑在于,在很多人--也许是绝大多数人的想象中,我应该是闷到抑郁的状态,而我也懒得解释我在干什么,因为解释完他们依然会觉得无聊.呵呵,重要的不是我在干什么,重要的是我就是这么会自得其乐.我总能给自己设立目标--无论是什么,我总能像个没头苍蝇一样四处乱撞寻找出路--也许就让我撞出去了也说不定呢,我总是对一切了解不了解的世界充满好奇心,我总能在别人觉得无趣的地方找到乐趣.生命充满了乐趣,我现在像打了鸡血一样,在自己的卧室也能够冒险.
有一位在众人眼中活得很好的朋友跟我抱怨生活没有意义,当然因为这样的无病呻吟我也常常发,所以我很能明白其中感受.并不是生活中真的没有什么事情好做,恰恰相反,是我们认为自己必须做某件事却因为种种客观原因而不能做或做不完美,于是这件事吸引了我们全部的思想,除了这件事,我们再不能想其他事.我们的思想被逼到一个狭小的窄巷,认为窄巷就是全部世界,向前是唯一的路.这个逼迫者有时候是社会主流意识,有时候就是我们自己.这位朋友不是唯一一位跟我抱怨不够幸福的朋友,她们的共同点是在众人眼中都不如我有资格抱怨.但恰恰,我很忙,我没工夫抱怨.
人类最可宝贵,并且永不会被剥夺的就是思想的自由.能帮助我们突破思维窄巷而获得自由的,只有自己.只要你愿意,请翻过墙头,就会看到外面的自由天地,有无限可能.
当然,你也完全有理由畏惧无限可能,因为它疑似迷茫,如果你习惯没有选择,那么还是在窄巷呆着,舒服地无聊着.想起<肖申克的救赎>里Red说的,这些高墙很奇怪,一开始你憎恨它,接着你习惯了它,再后来你就离不开它了.如果你已经不习惯自由选择,那么请继续在窄巷中舒服地抱怨着,不打扰.
The Proust Questionnaire has its
origins in a parlor game popularized (though not devised) by Marcel
Proust, the French essayist and novelist, who believed that, in
answering these questions, an individual reveals his or her true
nature. Here is the basic Proust Questionnaire.
1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
2. What is your greatest fear?
3. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
4. What is the trait you most deplore in others?
5. Which living person do you most admire?
6. What is your greatest extravagance?
7. What is your current state of mind?
8. What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
9. On what occasion do you lie?
10. What do you most dislike about your appearance?
11. Which living person do you most despise?
12. What is the quality you most like in a man?
13. What is the quality you most like in a woman?
14. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
15. What or who is the greatest love of your life?
16. When and where were you happiest?
17. Which talent would you most like to have?
18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it
be?
19. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what
would it be?
21. Where would you most like to live?
22. What is your most treasured possession?
23. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
24. What is your favorite occupation?
25. What is your most marked characteristic?
26. What do you most value in your friends?
27. Who are your favorite writers?
28. Who is your hero of fiction?
29. Which historical figure do you most identify with?
30. Who are your heroes in real life?
31. What are your favorite names?
32. What is it that you most dislike?
33. What is your greatest regret?
34. How would you like to die?
35. What is your motto?
Questionnaire Proust filled out at age 13:
* What do you regard as the lowest depth of
misery?
To be separated from Mama
* Where would you like to live?
In the country of the Ideal, or, rather, of my ideal
* What is your idea of earthly happiness?
To live in contact with those I love, with the beauties of nature,
with a quantity of books and music, and to have, within easy
distance, a French theater
* To what faults do you feel most
indulgent?
To a life deprived of the works of genius
* Who are your favorite heroes of fiction?
Those of romance and poetry, those who are the expression of an
ideal rather than an imitation of the real
* Who are your favorite characters in
history?
A mixture of Socrates, Pericles, Mahomet, Pliny the Younger and
Augustin Thierry
* Who are your favorite heroines in real
life?
A woman of genius leading an ordinary life
* Who are your favorite heroines of
fiction?
Those who are more than women without ceasing to be womanly;
everything that is tender, poetic, pure and in every way
beautiful
* Your favorite painter?
Meissonier
* Your favorite musician?
Mozart
* The quality you most admire in a man?
Intelligence, moral sense
* The quality you most admire in a woman?
Gentleness, naturalness, intelligence
* Your favorite virtue?
All virtues that are not limited to a sect: the universal
virtues
* Your favorite occupation?
Reading, dreaming, and writing verse
* Who would you have liked to be?
Since the question does not arise, I prefer not to answer it. All
the same, I should very much have liked to be Pliny the
Younger.
Questionnaire Proust filled out at age 20:
* Your most marked characteristic?
A craving to be loved, or, to be more precise, to be caressed and
spoiled rather than to be admired
* The quality you most like in a man?
Feminine charm
* The quality you most like in a woman?