I've eaten my words for many times

At first,I made the promise for good deed,

but it turns out another dissatisfaction.

And another disappointment.

I don't think people like such a feeling.

There's no choice I think.

I just make up current thing with the cost of

a probably fake future promise.

That's how I live my life.

Many times I realize I s

Long time no be here,because I've been busy with hunting for job and relaxing from the pressure.

The procedure of hunting for jobs is kind of mirror which lets you see the original you.

You have to admit there're thousands of shortcomings you have and you can't solve them all.

When people say that you're so excellent,I feel the same too.

But the fact leaves me with two words:wake up!

Wake up

I'm not out of confidence,I'm just out of my w

Today's the worst day of the year so far.

I realized I'm such a selfish guy in the world.

Totally.

I can give an excuse that I'm moron,after all,it's an excuse.

Essentially,I'm not a person who can wear other's shoes and say something right.

I usually tell others to do this,to do that,because that's the right way to deal with things.

Jackie behaved a little embarrassing, I don’t know why,

because normally he would talk into details or pass it away with a joke.

This time, he smiled, not wildly, just like a kid who was praised  for the first time.

And he told his story of his early time.

Once when he wa

Recently,it has been the low point of my life.

I can't get anything I want,in addition,

I lost many things I have.

It's another tough time for me.

I experienced before,but,again,it almost knocks me down.

I've been out of routine for about 2 days,

after the Operation Unit of Chemistry exam.