奥运会结束了，奥运村现在变成残奥村了，纪念一下，好朋友黄靖给我拍的背影，她不当摄影师真是亏了。

2009北京的第一场雪(窗里)

2009北京的第一场雪(窗外)

Maybe

Written by Ingrid Michaelson

I don't want to be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me

I don't want to be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go

Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

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下楼到门口的小饭馆吃了一大碗青菜粉，一个肉夹馍。其实10分钟前刚在家吃了晚饭。

坐在二楼靠窗的位子，生生的把那一大碗都吃了。

我问自己：你是真的饿吗？干吗非要这样呢？

脑子里在想，这家店给的量越来越少，是不是因为原来给的多，大家吃不完，为了防止浪费就给的少了呢？量贩式了？？那价格怎么不量贩呢？

所以我要吃完。

窗外的人好像都挺高兴的。不冷不热的天气，穿什么衣服的人都有，穿着拖鞋站大街上吃冰棍的，坐在店外喝着啤酒穿着风衣的。看看自己，不伦不类的。

小电视里看到一对情侣在车里捧着咖啡喝。

脑子里闪过一个声音，是咖啡店门上的铜铃声。

“一杯latte，先帮我冲下杯子。”

“好的，您这个杯子很少见阿。”

安静下来。

肚子已经开始疼了。

可还是觉得应该吃些东西。

24小时的超市很方便。

总是大夜里去买牛奶和白面包。

家里的咖啡粉不知不觉就在夜晚消失了。

TIAMO的打奶器就没浪费过，每次都像有洁癖一样的刷干净。

盯着镜子里自己的眼睛，看得自己麻木了。

幻嗅！阵阵的玫瑰花香！！

用好朋友的话说：简直境界了！

忍受了这么多天的闷热，终于在这午夜时分，凉风来袭，闪电，随即，稀稀疏疏的敲打声。

当我发觉现实并非亲眼所见，并非所有人都会善良的如同自己对待他人那样回馈与己。我想说的是，自己是那么的渺小和微不足道，当自己已经不是自己的时候怎会感到心疼？无论剪多少次头发，无论走到哪里，无论怎样发泄，每晚我还是会躺在床上，看着屋顶，回忆每一个细节，想着自己到底哪里做错了，到底哪里有误解，而且还会不停的想，不停的问自己以前怎么会那么开心。自认为可以说服自己，认为下一秒出现在眼前的就是那幅美好画面。无论怎样，不管多久，时间不会因为没有电力而停止，新的旅程会继续前行。会遇到其它的艰难险阻，会遇到对自己善良的人，人生得到重新完整。那些浪费我时间去思考的人和事情，会渐渐的烟消云散。

我知道我不该去回忆，我知道我停止不了时间的脚步，我知道一杯清水让我如此的安静。

一觉醒来，恍如昨日。

失望是因为希望

失望会有更多的希望

希望不会每次都失望！